Renu: Might a non secular expertise provide you with an perception into how irrelevant we’re within the bigger scheme of issues? Such as you skilled your self to be nothing however consciousness (even for a second). I really feel some vitality in me peeling off layers from my physique.
It appears to be crushing, pushing and gathering and peeling, and disposing of layers. Wherever I take my consideration (largely the pinnacle the place I sense strain), I really feel extraordinarily peaceable later and receptive to no matter I hear.
It’s why I discussed experiences. I really feel linked to an vitality pulsating round me as if I’m connected to it. This started years in the past because the common bodily shaking we expertise in meditation and went on to be like this. After many ranges of emptying (I can’t consider a greater phrase), it’s a lot much less now and I one way or the other don’t really feel frightened in any respect of something. I didn’t begin it so I left it to no matter began it.
My considering thoughts did get stressed and there was a second once I realized that this had nothing to do with the thoughts’s chatter. That’s once I realized that the chatter was ineffective, it had no bearing on no matter vitality was working inside.
I do sense adjustments. I’m much less concerned in lots of issues I used to get labored up about. I don’t really feel the necessity to management something. I’m much less fearful about my daughter (I lecture her much less). I one way or the other see that I can’t do something, and no matter works in me, works in everybody.
I additionally realized that once I don’t do a lot, lots occurs, that I’m led to do issues, by my senses and my inherent nature and by others. Even a bit of chicken may play a component in how my day goes.
I do nonetheless have my doubts as I’ve learn that the thoughts could be very tough. How would you inform a real expertise from a entice? Or ought to we not care abt this too, as no matter occurs, we’re not in cost?
Jagjot: In fact, it does! Each expertise is a pointer to absolutely the. However it’s only a pointer. Typically, we get so caught up within the expertise that we overlook what it’s there for. Each expertise is perceived by the thoughts.
What’s perceived within the absence (stillness) of thoughts will not be an expertise however the SELF or understanding. And it’s the fruits of a seeker’s non secular journey. That stated, I’m not lowering or invalidating your experiences in any means. All I’m saying is LOOK BEYOND.
Okay, now, let’s speak by way of vitality. A brand new idea (once more, not the reality). The pure consciousness or Shiva creates motion within the type of Shakti. In essence, Shiva and Shakti are one. However to the thoughts, which is a restricted manifestation of the Shakti, life seems to be fragmented.
The Shakti (vitality) is following its pure cycle – from supply to creation, after which merging again into the supply or Shiva. It creates separation (because the restricted thoughts), and that thoughts has the entire blueprint for that particular person containing all attainable outcomes.
What this suggests is that until the vitality motion is restricted, the thoughts primarily alternates between two states: Tamasic (inertia, lethargy, and many others.) and Rajasic (pleasure, anxiousness, restlessness). All of the uncomfortable signs that we expertise as anxiousness or melancholy consequence from the thoughts switching continually between the 2 above-mentioned states.
Nevertheless, it’s within the nature of vitality to rise and merge (not the right phrase) again into the supply. Many individuals attempt to drive this course of and wind up in hassle. The factor is that our physique has an intelligence of its personal, and generally, it doesn’t take heed to the thoughts.
Subsequently, say in your case, sooner or later, the vitality determined to rise. So a bigger manifestation, i.e., Kundalini bought stimulated, which created completely different experiences. Some have been nice, and a few others have been disagreeable.
Now, it’s clear that your thoughts is changing into nonetheless (Sattva) as a result of that occurs solely when the Kundalini rises. The signs that you simply expertise in your physique is the results of cleaning occurring. Consider it like one huge vitality mop clearing out the filth (extreme accumulation or deficiency) vitality.
So generally it feels pleasure or aid, at different occasions, it’s melancholy and even nightmares the place darkish entities with pink eyes leap in your chest. However all of it’s from the restricted thoughts’s perspective.
Because the thoughts turns into increasingly nonetheless (vitality is transferring nearer to the supply), the motion (considering) reduces additional, and what was being perceived by the person is now “witnessed” within the gentle of impersonal consciousness (that’s the one means I can outline it). Subsequently, there is no such thing as a attachment to any feeling or state, and on the similar time, there is no such thing as a concern additionally. So the tip result’s lasting peace.
The place are “you” in all of this? You’re the one seeing all the pieces. You’re Shiva. Why do you hassle with what vitality does? Let it do its work. Let the thoughts do what it does – doubt, skepticism, flip-flop, no matter. The thoughts will for certain create the thought, “what if I’m flawed about all this?” Permit that additionally. Awakening is being ready to be flawed about all the pieces. Give up utterly to “what’s,” which is “I CAN’T KNOW.”
In case you discover rigorously, your thoughts continues to be involved with proper and flawed someplace. What’s the worst implication of being flawed? Struggling? What’s the worst that can occur with struggling? And to whom? It’s annihilation that the thoughts fears most.
So it should attempt all methods within the e-book. Let it try this. It’s all pre-destined and the character is just taking part in the half. In your case, there’s a protecting barrier created by your thoughts that forestalls you from surrendering utterly. It could possibly be a childhood concern, conditioning, or trauma of some sort.
See the totality of all experiences relatively than evaluating the restricted occurrences. In any other case, the thoughts will preserve you trapped within the thought of actual and faux experiences. Who is anxious? Who’s afraid of the entice? Look into that and also you’ll know.
I hope this isn’t complicated for you. Be happy to ask something particular. There isn’t a simple means for me to elucidate this idea. You solely have to have a look at what’s inflicting the resistance. Merely “seeing” the resistance is freedom from ache. You haven’t any management over what vitality does, what expertise it brings subsequent, and when it should merge. All you’ll be able to “do” is “see.”
Renu: I simply wanted to share this expertise. I suppose I’m at a spot the place I can do nothing however see. Typically, when life presents its common challenges, I sit quietly and see this vitality working. It’s superb how this expertise and unusual life go hand in hand as if each have been naturally meant to mix into one another. Sure, consciousness is all there’s. Why? I can’t know.
What do you imply once you say “look past?” Do imply past the experiences?
Jagjot: Sure. All non secular experiences are important and exquisite, but when the ego will get too connected to the experiences, it begins chasing them, and that may grow to be a supply of steady struggling. Ramesh Balsekar stated that each non secular expertise is a free pattern or an invite to absolutely the.
Regardless of how blissful, each expertise serves its objective and involves an finish. Nisargadatta Maharaj stated that you simply’re not the expertise, however the background by which all of the experiences manifest. So that you’re the display of consciousness by which these experiences seem.
Additionally, this information mustn’t cease you from having fun with the pleasure of an expertise. Subsequently, sustain along with your non secular practices – meditation, yoga, or no matter you do. What finally issues is peace of thoughts with the entire acceptance that ache and pleasure are interconnected opposites in duality.
Renu: Does resistance imply delicate ideas or gross sensations? Like once I look and it falls away.
Jagjot: It may be each generally. However on this specific case, I’m speaking concerning the resistance created by the thoughts within the type of doubt and overcautiousness. Resistance to the idea that “I’m not the doer.” And I absolutely perceive that it’s not within the ego’s management to try this, nonetheless, I say it as a result of generally the phrases go deep and create some sort of resonance.
Presently, chances are you’ll not have the ability to settle for the idea, however with all the knowledge you might have gathered, you’ll for certain have the ability to confirm this idea within the gentle of your personal future experiences. Subsequently, carry on investigating and see the place it leads you to.