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It was bizarre how simply I used to be capable of shift gears this morning from prepared to show to house with a sick child. Am I lastly changing into versatile and resilient? Nah. Extra probably I’m nonetheless in an altered state from dancing and singing all yesterday afternoon. Superb!
However this state—short-term or not—of having the ability to settle for, with out tying myself in knots, the necessity to NOT do what I used to be prepared and excited to do? To remain house? To surrender my expectations? I’m very interested by it whereas it lasts. It’s a window into how I’d wish to be. Shedding the product-oriented,
sleep once you’re useless,
no ache no achieve,
transfer it or lose it,
mentality that I’ve been socialized to consider, much more successfully and deeply than this non-doing, pausing Alexander Approach stuff that I’ve been practising for 15 years.
It’s astonishing how a lot vitality it takes to agonize about having to vary my plan. NOT doing that and simply quietly acquiescing to the fact of a quiet day with a sick child was wonderful.
A line of music is enjoying in my head… “Give in! Give in!” (from “No matter Lola Needs,” Rattling Yankees) What if I simply gave in to the inevitable, quite than making an attempt to be and do all of the issues on a regular basis? What if I didn’t waste a lot vitality worrying about it?
Does this resonate with you?
Our tradition (nonetheless!) doesn’t worth the “keep house” possibility, for all of the lip service. However possibly if we simply let ourselves take the rattling sick (or sick child) day and never stress about it, we’d all be higher off.