Hiya everybody!
It’s loopy to assume that I’ve completed my third week of internship already! Internship has been such a tremendous expertise and journey to date; nonetheless, it hasn’t been with out some challenges. My second week of internship I began going through some anxieties and insecurities. I started to surprise if there was one thing improper with me. I felt like I shouldn’t be feeling anxious this early; I’ve hardly even began.
I began feeling some imposter syndrome and insecurities about myself as a pupil music therapist and musician. Moreover, I started feeling a bit alone. I had spent the final 4 years having friends round me that had been in the identical stage as me that I may lean on, as an intern I don’t have that anymore. Probably the most irritating half was that some previous nervous habits of mine began resurfacing.
I figured there was two instructions I may go in: I may push the sensation down and ignore them or I may face them. I made a decision to decide on the latter. I needed to face my emotions and work on them now, not leaving them to be an issue for me sooner or later like I had executed so many occasions earlier than.
Don’t be Afraid to Open Up
From day one my supervisors instructed me that I may come to them with something. I contemplated closely going to them with what I used to be feeling, however I’m glad I did. They had been in a position to assist validate my emotions, and that it was nothing irregular to really feel nervousness at this level of internship. In addition they shared about their experiences of being an intern and the anxieties they confronted. Moreover they had been in a position to share with me self care suggestions that they use. General, it helped me really feel quite a bit much less remoted then what I felt prior.
Learn a E book
My first day of internship Katey recommended the e-book You’re A Dangerous*ss, because it was a e-book {that a} majority of the employees at MTC had learn. My copy of the e-book got here in on the finish of my second week, which was good timing. I’ve by no means been into motivational/self assist books, however I figured I might give it a strive. I’m half means by means of the e-book, and already it has me deeply analyzing my anxieties and fears. It additionally gave me some concepts of self care methods I can do. I’ve now discovered myself making word of comparable books that I wish to learn after I end this one. General I might extremely counsel discovering a e-book to learn that resonates with you and your emotional wants.
Search Additional Assist if You Want It
This recommendation got here from a dialog about internships I had with a younger skilled throughout my senior yr of faculty. Being in a caring occupation, it may be straightforward to fall into excessive stress and nervousness. There is no such thing as a disgrace in seeing a psychologist or counselor to work by means of a number of the emotions you might be having. Bear in mind that you’re nonetheless a pupil, which implies that your college’s counseling companies are nonetheless out there, and particularly with the pandemic, many universities’ counseling facilities are providing telehealth companies.
Don’t get me improper, these usually are not over evening remedy. I’m nonetheless feeling anxious and self aware at occasions, however it helps me really feel higher realizing I’m going through it as an alternative of avoiding it. Take your time and discover self care methods that give you the results you want. In case you are a pupil or new intern, I hope you understand that in case you are feeling alone and anxious originally of internship, you aren’t alone and there may be nothing improper with you for feeling that means.
Thanks for studying! I imagine in you, and maintain having compassion for your self as you develop.
Lillian
